Thirteen Months

Thirteen months since my last blog post.

Thirteen months of still letting other things interfere with something I love doing.

Thirteen months of letting urgent take priority over important.

I realized recently that my mindset and my way of thinking lately was leading to some resentments, discouragement and at times even some real feelings of anger. None of that is healthy or helpful. I kept telling myself that when "A" happens, then I can do "B".

Well, it doesn't look like "A" is going to happen anytime soon. And there really isn't anything I can do to make "A" happen, or at least nothing that I am willing to do.

Once I realized that, I had to decide if I was going to stay on the same treadmill of thinking (which was making me frustrated and unhappy) or if I was going to change my way of thinking and make some changes.

My decision is to try and change my way of thinking and look at ways to make the situation workable. Since I can't do anything about "A" I have to find a way to do "B" anyway.

Doing "B" means I have to take more control of my finances. Doing "B" means taking control of my way of thinking about things and my response to those things. Doing "B" means putting myself and my needs as a priority. And my needs include following my passions (like doing genealogy and writing).

I really hope that this time I managed to figure out a way to accomplish this. I thought I had set small enough goals last year to be successful. But even though I set goals, I didn't really make plans on how to meet those goals.

Part of problem for me in making structured plans is that my health is unpredictable, so saying I will do X on Mondays at 1 pm doesn't really work well for me. I have made to-do checklists, but they get set aside and I don't follow through. Maybe I am making them too detailed and complicated. I do tend to do that sometimes.

Maybe it is time to take a new look at those checklists and pare them down to a few basics, then with time as I build habits I can think about adding to my list.

Here is to it not being another thirteen months between blog posts.